Day One

So it is the end of the first day of seeing Ryan.
We stuck to it. No kissing and honestly... it was not that hard.
I made sure to confess to my Savior today before I saw Ryan how I could not do this without Him and He had to guide my steps today.
It was really helpful that Ryan was very careful in when we hugged where his heads was.
Actually, he was just very helpful in it all.
The only thing that I can see ::really:: being a problem is once we remove the behaviors we need to immediately fill the void with the Holy Spirit. I can already sense my love tank being off-kilter. I know what you're thinking... didn't Ryan just fly half way around the states to see you? Yes, yes He did. But that is what happens when you're affirmation of love is in the wrong things, your thinking patterns don't really make sense.
So, in conclusion, I think we got this covered. yes things will get harder after day one but if we stick to it, be accountable and make the right decisions, God will do the rest. "Do what is possible, and God will do the impossible"

Matthew 5:8
"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."

Kicking out the crutches

For so long our love as been based on physical gratification and words of adoration. Of course there has been real substance to our relationhisp including freindship, quality time and encouagrment, otherwise we would not have made it this long.
But I hear the Lord say, what if that real stuff was all of it. Imagine the love, the freedom the real-ness you could expereince.Tonight I am going to tell Ryan that I believe just as we plan on not kissing for three months that we should not say 'I Love You'. As his #1 love language is physical touch & that will be taking backseat, why not make this an even effort.... words of affirmation. Why is it I NEED to hear him say he loves me? Can I live without it? Well, I guess we will found out.
And with most thigs in my life I believe the way of the Lord will turn out to be much sweeter than any substitute I have been filling it with.

Coming soon: My thoughts on proverbs5-7. Wisdom on sexual immorality.

Our purpose

As of April 21st, 2010 Ryan and I are dedicating ourselves to living a life of purity for God. This includes our physical life as well as our thought life. I plan on keeping this blog as a testament of how even through the trials God is faithful and good. Someday I want to "Build our House" -proverbs 24:27- but as for now we must finish our outdoor work. This work includes staying true to our purity vow, becoming student's of the word and allowing God to reshape our character. So someday, someday we can have a family, a ministry, and a clean heart.

I do not know how often we will blog and honestly I hope no one even notices this site was created. I want it to be a diary for future purposes that we can show that redemption is possible and help our future 'seeds" because of it.

Here's to a new way of life. A better way of life. The right way of life. That way we can live an abundant life.