I started thumbing through "Boy Meets Girl" again.
At some points, yeah, it seems religious but when you fall in love with the Lord and you get that passion to live rightly for Him, you'll understand. If you are not there yet, no worries- He is a patient Papa.
When I read it last year- the main idea I took away from it is you have to put God & Sex in the same picture before you can take sin out. I have gotten away from that message.
A funny line that I saw "Why preheat the oven when you can't cook the roast" haha, it is a warning for passionate make-out sessions.
Or the stinger "There is a difference between dressing attractively and dressing to attract"
Now why even mention this book. Well the purity walk is alright, but its not good. It is not exciting. It is not passionate. It is not what God had in mind when He out Adam and Eve together. God loves sex. He created it on purpose. That purpose has been skewed and perverted and sold for money... sigh.
Point is you can't have purity without God and you should not be having sex without Him either. He has to be in the picture, or either way it is not going to work. I'll bring my point on home some other night, I am just glad he brought it back to my mind.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
The Curfew of our Hearts
Luke 11:27-30
As he said these things, a woman in the crowd raised her voice and said to him, "Blessed is the womb that bore you, and the breasts at which you nursed!" But he said, "Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and keep it!" When the crowds were increasing, he began to say,"This generation is an evil generation. It seeks for a sign, but no sign will be given to it except the sign of Jonah. For as Jonah became a sign to the people of Nineveh, so will the Son of Man be to this generation."
Blessed are those who hear the word of God and keep it...
Blessed. Are those. Who. Hear. The word of -God- AND keep it...
Keep it. The word of God.
Blessed are you.
He has called me to holiness.
He has called me to literally lived a -set apart- life.
The bible calls for us to do a lot. Love. Love rightly. Withhold judgment. Keep our cool and not murder people. We are reminded of these things daily...
But He also calls us to Holiness.
Purity.
Cleanliness.
Consecration.
Dedication.
Faithfulness.
Faultlessness.
Humility.
Innocence.
Morality.
Reverence.
Righteousness.
Sanctification.
Virtue.
...He calls us. He calls me. Why AM I not answering? "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" -- Luke 6:46
He was he sign of Jonah for OUR generation.
He calls me to holiness because He knows what will happen to me when I do not live a holy life.
That is what I like to call, the Father heart of God.
He wants us* to succeed.
Always has.
The same reason my earthly father ((should have)) given me a curfew... they know the destruction the darkness brings. So does God- the Father.
[[iwillnotbedefeated]]
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sow, Reap
We sow and we reap.
Old Bible teaching.
Last night I sowed and I comprimised.
I let the fear of abandonment influence me.
I won't say how far and in which way.
But I comprimised.
I understand that God is not about reward systems.
He is about the heart.
He knows the choices I made.
Maybe I will reap horrible things.
Maybe the choices won't affect us at all.
I want to live my life speaking about the true life of a Christian in America.
Here is the true life- sometimes we fail.
I won't go into a ramble about getting back up again and only through our weakeness can he be made strong and so on.
I knew what I was doing, I knew God has set before me life and death and for that moment I chose death.
But I will say today the sun rose again and God is still my Savoir.
I have a life to live for Him and I will admit my sins.
No one said this was going to be easy and actually God did not say it would be worth it-- But I know because of His goodness it will be.
And for that- comprimising is not an option.
Stronger accountability will be had.
Old Bible teaching.
Last night I sowed and I comprimised.
I let the fear of abandonment influence me.
I won't say how far and in which way.
But I comprimised.
I understand that God is not about reward systems.
He is about the heart.
He knows the choices I made.
Maybe I will reap horrible things.
Maybe the choices won't affect us at all.
I want to live my life speaking about the true life of a Christian in America.
Here is the true life- sometimes we fail.
I won't go into a ramble about getting back up again and only through our weakeness can he be made strong and so on.
I knew what I was doing, I knew God has set before me life and death and for that moment I chose death.
But I will say today the sun rose again and God is still my Savoir.
I have a life to live for Him and I will admit my sins.
No one said this was going to be easy and actually God did not say it would be worth it-- But I know because of His goodness it will be.
And for that- comprimising is not an option.
Stronger accountability will be had.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Day 56
Routine.
Love without touch has become ::boring::
I understand that the reason for this void is because we have yet to fill our 'gap' with God.
In the last post I discussed how the fullness of God has attracted us away from sin-
yet I have not been chasing this fullness- nor has he.
No worries.
We will kick this lull.
Serving God is loving God. And loving God is anything BUT boring.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Finding the Fullness
In lieu of our 1.5 month success- who knew!- I thought I would write some more about what I feel has made this transition so easyyy!!
First and foremost God's grace and provision.
Second, if it is of God's will(which by the way purity is of His will-check out like ALL of the Paul's letters) he will give you that grace and provision, with little demand from you because He wants to see you succeed. We have to remember that God is on our side, even when we don't feel like anything is going our way.
Third, having an initmate with our creator really can be/will be enough.
I remember when Jesus became my Lord. It was April 2007. At the time I had a different boyfriend. Neither him or I appreciated my value in this world and our relationship was based on selfish and worldly ways. Although not a long relationship, nor that serious, I had received a diamond ring from him. I longed for this ring; I begged for this ring; I worshiped this ring. As God began to capture my heart, I went to a conference and I was singing “Your Grace is enough, your Grace is enough for me….” and I froze. I looked up at my raised hands and I began to feel sick to my stomach. The ring no longer represented love and security but greed and sin. Right then I had learned the difference between being in the world and of it. I ended things with that boyfriend quickly after and began to met face-to-face with God daily. That is when things really started to pick up. Once I turned my eyes towards him- no other love was sufficient. Did I still try to self-medicate with worldly love? Sure... but I had a taste of the living water Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman about at the well ((John 7)).
Ughh.. if only I could express how amazing His love is. I have tried before in my own personal blog but nothing can capture His expressions and outpourings that only you can expereince for yourself. Alas, I will continue on.
It is for that innocence of intimacy with my creator I no longer hit the sheets with my boyfriend.
It is for those uncomparable peaceful moments spent with my Savoir, I deicide to head home early from his apartment.
It is for those wild adventures the Lord sends me on with Him as the treasure being found, that keep me from compromising my pleasure seeking.
Some churches actually preach that... some just preach 'NO'... but a lot of them now are focusing on keeping our "gift" for the right man and using it for the right reason... which is true but, --but, there is an intimacy with God that can fulfill our desire until then. Of course, it's not physical but you won't even concern yourself with that once you find this. ((I mean unless you put yourself into stupid situations that are going to be beyond tempting- no examples need to be given))
*sigh- this is one of those topics anyone at the pulpit can preach until they are blue in the face, just like they did to me. BUT it is true and at least by planting seeds once you do believe me, you'll have confirmation of it. Until then, be blessed & I will keep you updated on our success, triumph of the world and dependence on the Lord.
First and foremost God's grace and provision.
Second, if it is of God's will(which by the way purity is of His will-check out like ALL of the Paul's letters) he will give you that grace and provision, with little demand from you because He wants to see you succeed. We have to remember that God is on our side, even when we don't feel like anything is going our way.
Third, having an initmate with our creator really can be/will be enough.
I remember when Jesus became my Lord. It was April 2007. At the time I had a different boyfriend. Neither him or I appreciated my value in this world and our relationship was based on selfish and worldly ways. Although not a long relationship, nor that serious, I had received a diamond ring from him. I longed for this ring; I begged for this ring; I worshiped this ring. As God began to capture my heart, I went to a conference and I was singing “Your Grace is enough, your Grace is enough for me….” and I froze. I looked up at my raised hands and I began to feel sick to my stomach. The ring no longer represented love and security but greed and sin. Right then I had learned the difference between being in the world and of it. I ended things with that boyfriend quickly after and began to met face-to-face with God daily. That is when things really started to pick up. Once I turned my eyes towards him- no other love was sufficient. Did I still try to self-medicate with worldly love? Sure... but I had a taste of the living water Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman about at the well ((John 7)).
Ughh.. if only I could express how amazing His love is. I have tried before in my own personal blog but nothing can capture His expressions and outpourings that only you can expereince for yourself. Alas, I will continue on.
It is for that innocence of intimacy with my creator I no longer hit the sheets with my boyfriend.
It is for those uncomparable peaceful moments spent with my Savoir, I deicide to head home early from his apartment.
It is for those wild adventures the Lord sends me on with Him as the treasure being found, that keep me from compromising my pleasure seeking.
It is not about abstaining from something.
Its about finding the fullness in Him and then a rightful husband.
*sigh- this is one of those topics anyone at the pulpit can preach until they are blue in the face, just like they did to me. BUT it is true and at least by planting seeds once you do believe me, you'll have confirmation of it. Until then, be blessed & I will keep you updated on our success, triumph of the world and dependence on the Lord.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
The Good Fight
To fight the good fight, is not much of a fight at all.
To do the works of God, is simply to believe.
And to conquer the world all we need to do is surrender.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
It's not what it looks like
This battle is not ours. All we have to do is make a choice. God wants us to succeed. He is giving a path of success in this moral-lacking world. Turn your eyes towards Him, He'll show you. Don't focus on the struggles or the blessings. Focus on Him, it will work out. Just like it is for us <3
2 Corinthians 10:3-5 For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
This is world is never what it seems. We are not fighting nor loving the way the world does. We receive our strength from Him and thank Him that his ways, thoughts, & love is higher than ours. =)
Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
That my friend- is good news. We are all victors, we just don't all know it yet.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Two Weeks
Since returning I have been speaking a lot about making choices.
We have the choice to run after God or man.
We have the choice to follow His word or create our own path.
We have choices and we have compromises.
Ryan & I have successfully chosen to run after the things of God and He has blessed us immensely. Although I could go into detail of what this looks like, I am not going to. I am just going to say- you have to see this for yourself. Sure, my insecurities have surfaced-- but it has not been painful. Within my partnership with God, I have a partner in Ryan and that makes all the difference.
Make the choice, God will take it from there.
Be accountable, circumstances will not be difficult.
Trust in His word, it will always come true.
"But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
We have the choice to run after God or man.
We have the choice to follow His word or create our own path.
We have choices and we have compromises.
Ryan & I have successfully chosen to run after the things of God and He has blessed us immensely. Although I could go into detail of what this looks like, I am not going to. I am just going to say- you have to see this for yourself. Sure, my insecurities have surfaced-- but it has not been painful. Within my partnership with God, I have a partner in Ryan and that makes all the difference.
Make the choice, God will take it from there.
Be accountable, circumstances will not be difficult.
Trust in His word, it will always come true.
"But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
that those who love your name may rejoice in you
For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous;
you surround them with your favor as with a shield"
-Psalm 5:11-12
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Day One
So it is the end of the first day of seeing Ryan.
We stuck to it. No kissing and honestly... it was not that hard.
I made sure to confess to my Savior today before I saw Ryan how I could not do this without Him and He had to guide my steps today.
It was really helpful that Ryan was very careful in when we hugged where his heads was.
Actually, he was just very helpful in it all.
The only thing that I can see ::really:: being a problem is once we remove the behaviors we need to immediately fill the void with the Holy Spirit. I can already sense my love tank being off-kilter. I know what you're thinking... didn't Ryan just fly half way around the states to see you? Yes, yes He did. But that is what happens when you're affirmation of love is in the wrong things, your thinking patterns don't really make sense.
So, in conclusion, I think we got this covered. yes things will get harder after day one but if we stick to it, be accountable and make the right decisions, God will do the rest. "Do what is possible, and God will do the impossible"
Matthew 5:8
"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."
We stuck to it. No kissing and honestly... it was not that hard.
I made sure to confess to my Savior today before I saw Ryan how I could not do this without Him and He had to guide my steps today.
It was really helpful that Ryan was very careful in when we hugged where his heads was.
Actually, he was just very helpful in it all.
The only thing that I can see ::really:: being a problem is once we remove the behaviors we need to immediately fill the void with the Holy Spirit. I can already sense my love tank being off-kilter. I know what you're thinking... didn't Ryan just fly half way around the states to see you? Yes, yes He did. But that is what happens when you're affirmation of love is in the wrong things, your thinking patterns don't really make sense.
So, in conclusion, I think we got this covered. yes things will get harder after day one but if we stick to it, be accountable and make the right decisions, God will do the rest. "Do what is possible, and God will do the impossible"
Matthew 5:8
"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Kicking out the crutches
For so long our love as been based on physical gratification and words of adoration. Of course there has been real substance to our relationhisp including freindship, quality time and encouagrment, otherwise we would not have made it this long.
But I hear the Lord say, what if that real stuff was all of it. Imagine the love, the freedom the real-ness you could expereince.Tonight I am going to tell Ryan that I believe just as we plan on not kissing for three months that we should not say 'I Love You'. As his #1 love language is physical touch & that will be taking backseat, why not make this an even effort.... words of affirmation. Why is it I NEED to hear him say he loves me? Can I live without it? Well, I guess we will found out.
And with most thigs in my life I believe the way of the Lord will turn out to be much sweeter than any substitute I have been filling it with.
Coming soon: My thoughts on proverbs5-7. Wisdom on sexual immorality.
But I hear the Lord say, what if that real stuff was all of it. Imagine the love, the freedom the real-ness you could expereince.Tonight I am going to tell Ryan that I believe just as we plan on not kissing for three months that we should not say 'I Love You'. As his #1 love language is physical touch & that will be taking backseat, why not make this an even effort.... words of affirmation. Why is it I NEED to hear him say he loves me? Can I live without it? Well, I guess we will found out.
And with most thigs in my life I believe the way of the Lord will turn out to be much sweeter than any substitute I have been filling it with.
Coming soon: My thoughts on proverbs5-7. Wisdom on sexual immorality.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Our purpose
As of April 21st, 2010 Ryan and I are dedicating ourselves to living a life of purity for God. This includes our physical life as well as our thought life. I plan on keeping this blog as a testament of how even through the trials God is faithful and good. Someday I want to "Build our House" -proverbs 24:27- but as for now we must finish our outdoor work. This work includes staying true to our purity vow, becoming student's of the word and allowing God to reshape our character. So someday, someday we can have a family, a ministry, and a clean heart.
I do not know how often we will blog and honestly I hope no one even notices this site was created. I want it to be a diary for future purposes that we can show that redemption is possible and help our future 'seeds" because of it.
Here's to a new way of life. A better way of life. The right way of life. That way we can live an abundant life.
I do not know how often we will blog and honestly I hope no one even notices this site was created. I want it to be a diary for future purposes that we can show that redemption is possible and help our future 'seeds" because of it.
Here's to a new way of life. A better way of life. The right way of life. That way we can live an abundant life.
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